Okay, so I’ve been messing around with astrology charts lately, and I saw something that kinda freaked me out: Saturn in the 12th house. I’d heard it’s, like, a super tough placement. So, I decided to dig in and see what it really meant for me.
My Deep Dive
First, I pulled up my birth chart online. I already knew my birth time and place, so it was pretty easy. Yep, there it was: Saturn, chilling in my 12th house. Ugh.
Next, I started googling. I mean, a lot of googling. I read tons of articles and forum posts. Some were doom and gloom, talking about isolation and hidden enemies. Others were more, “it’s a challenge, but you can grow from it” kind of vibe.
I decided I needed a more structured approach. So, I grabbed a notebook and started taking notes. I broke it down like this:
- Saturn: Restriction, discipline, karma, limitations… basically, the cosmic “tough love” teacher.
- 12th House: The subconscious, hidden things, spirituality, self-undoing, institutions (like hospitals or prisons…yikes!).
Then, I started thinking about my own life. Have I felt restricted in these areas? Do I have subconscious patterns that hold me back? The answer, honestly, was a big, fat YES.
I was starting to realize how many thing I have done.
Putting it into Practice
I have always had many bad habits, some habits will make people feel very uncomfortable, so in order not to let others find out, also do not want to be talked about by others, I will be very hard to hide these, do not let people know, at the same time I have a very strong desire not to let others know the real me.
Knowing this, I started to actually do something about it. I began a meditation practice. Just 10 minutes a day, but it’s been helping me tap into that subconscious stuff. I also started journaling, trying to untangle some of my deeply ingrained beliefs and fears. It is all my subconscious to bring out.
It’s been… well, it’s been work. It’s not like I suddenly became enlightened or anything. But I’m definitely more aware of my own patterns. I’m learning to be kinder to myself, to accept the parts of me that I used to hide.
So give myself a period of time to meditate, slowly change.
It’s an ongoing process, for sure. Saturn in the 12th isn’t a life sentence. It’s more like a… cosmic homework assignment. And I’m slowly but surely working my way through it.
