Okay, so, I’ve been messing around with this astrology thing again, you know, just for fun. And I stumbled upon something called “South Node conjunct Venus.” Sounds fancy, right? But it’s actually pretty wild when you dig into it.
First off, I had to figure out what the heck a “South Node” even is. Turns out, it’s not a planet or anything, but more like a point in your birth chart that shows your past life baggage. Yeah, I know, kinda woo-woo, but stick with me. Then there’s Venus, which is all about love, beauty, money – the good stuff.
So, “South Node conjunct Venus” basically means these two things are hanging out together in your chart. At the start I went to check my birth chart online, and typed in all that birthday stuff. Boom! There it was, my South Node right on top of my Venus. Wild!
Next, I started reading about what this combo might mean. Some sources say it could indicate that you are carrying some unresolved issues related to relationships or self-worth from your past lives. And honestly, some of the things I read about really hit home. Like, I’ve always had this weird thing about feeling like I don’t deserve good things, especially when it comes to love.
I’m not gonna lie, some of it felt a little too accurate, like someone was reading my diary. For example, I’ve always had this pattern of getting into relationships that start off amazing but then fizzle out because I start self-sabotaging. Or I’ll attract people who are super charming but end up being unavailable or just plain bad for me.
I started to reflect on my past relationships. I listed out all the significant ones and tried to identify any recurring patterns. It was a bit painful, to be honest. I noticed that I often settled for less than I deserved or stayed in situations that weren’t fulfilling.
- Relationship 1: Started great, ended badly because I couldn’t handle the happiness.
- Relationship 2: I was totally into them, but they were emotionally unavailable.
- Relationship 3: We were incompatible, but I stayed way too long out of fear of being alone.
After doing all this digging, I decided to make some changes. I started working on my self-esteem, practicing self-love, and setting healthier boundaries in my relationships. I even started meditating and journaling to get more in touch with my feelings.
It’s not like I’ve suddenly become this perfect, enlightened being. I still mess up sometimes. But I feel like I’m more aware of my patterns now, and I’m actively trying to break them. And honestly, that feels pretty damn good.
So, yeah, that’s my little adventure with the South Node conjunct Venus thing. It’s been a trip, but a good one. Who knew that looking at some dots on a chart could lead to so much self-discovery?
