Okay, so the other day I was messing around with my tarot deck, you know, just trying to get a feel for the energy of the week ahead. And bam! I pulled the “Princess of Cups Reversed.” Now, I’m no tarot expert, but I’ve been playing around with these cards long enough to know that reversed cards usually mean something’s a bit… off.
I grabbed my favorite tarot journal – the one with the sparkly cover, obviously – and flipped to a clean page. I like to jot down my initial thoughts before I go digging for “official” meanings. It helps me connect with my intuition, you know?
My First Take
- Blocked creativity? I’d been feeling kinda blah about my art lately.
- Emotional immaturity? Maybe I was being a bit of a baby about something.
- Inner child stuff? Hmmm, that one always gets me thinking.
Then,I grabbed a book. Then I went to grab my phone and do some quick searches.I found that “Princess of Cups Reversed” often points to things like feeling insecure, having unrealistic dreams, or even being a bit manipulative (yikes!). It can also indicate emotional co-dependency or needing external validation.
So, I sat there, journal in hand, and really thought about my week. Was I feeling any of those things? Honestly, yeah. I’d been putting off starting a new painting because I was afraid it wouldn’t be “good enough.” And I’d definitely been seeking reassurance from my partner more than usual.
Digging Deeper
I decided to do a little meditation to see if anything else came up. I lit a candle, put on some chill music, and just breathed. After a while, I started to visualize myself as a little kid, sitting by a pond, afraid to jump in. That image really resonated with me.
I realized I’d been letting fear hold me back in a lot of areas, not just my art. Fear of failure, fear of judgment, fear of not being “perfect.” It was all tied to that inner child who just wanted to feel safe and loved.
Making a Plan
Okay, so what to do about it? I decided to take some baby steps. First, I committed to spending just 15 minutes a day working on my painting, no pressure, just for fun. Second, I talked to my partner about my insecurities and we came up with some ways he could support me without me becoming overly reliant on him. And third, I started journaling again, specifically focusing on positive self-talk and affirmations.
It’s not a magic fix, of course. But pulling that “Princess of Cups Reversed” card was a real wake-up call. It forced me to look at some of my not-so-pretty patterns and start making some changes. And honestly, that’s what I love about tarot – it’s not about predicting the future, it’s about understanding yourself better and growing as a person.
It will take time and effort,but I am sure that I can do it.
