Okay, so, let’s talk about this tarot reading I did the other day. I was feeling all out of sorts, you know, just emotionally drained and like I couldn’t connect with anyone. So I thought, why not try a little tarot, see if it can shed some light on what’s going on with me?
So I grab my deck, shuffle the cards while thinking about how I’m feeling, and I pull the Ace of Cups reversed. Now, I’m no tarot expert, but I’ve dabbled a bit, and I know this card, when it’s upright, is all about new beginnings, love, and emotional fulfillment. But flipped on its head? That’s a whole other story.
I started digging into it, reading up on what it could mean. And boy, did it hit home.
- First thing I read was about feeling emotionally blocked. That’s exactly it! I felt like I had this wall up around my heart, and I couldn’t let anyone in, not even my partner. It was like, I don’t know, I was just shut down. I pushed and pulled my heart.
- Then there was this thing about unfulfilled connections. Yeah, that resonated too. I felt like my relationships, especially the romantic one, were just…stale. Like we were going through the motions but not really connecting on a deeper level. It was making me wonder if we were maybe falling out of love or something. I felt sad, lost.
- Another part I read talked about creative stagnation, not really feeling inspired or motivated. It felt like it was the point, I felt it every day. I used to love painting, but lately, I just haven’t felt like picking up a brush. It’s like my creative well had run dry. I have tried many ways, but it didn’t work.
After reading all that, I just sat there for a while, processing it all. It was kind of a wake-up call, you know? I realized I had been neglecting my emotional needs, bottling things up instead of dealing with them. Also I have not talked with my friends for a long time. It’s really not a good thing. I should have solved these things.
I decided I needed to make some changes. I started by talking to my partner, opening up about how I was feeling. It wasn’t easy, but it was a start. I also made an effort to reconnect with my creative side, even if it was just doodling in a notebook for a few minutes each day. And also I decided to have a long trip with my close friends.
It’s still a work in progress, but I’m feeling a bit more hopeful now. Pulling that Ace of Cups reversed was like a sign from the universe, telling me to pay attention to my heart and start making some changes. It’s not easy, but I’m learning to open myself up again, to let love and creativity flow back into my life. I felt it changed me.
The result?
Honestly, it’s too early to tell. But I’m feeling a little lighter, a little more connected. It’s like a weight has been lifted off my chest. I know I have a long way to go, but I’m taking it one step at a time. And who knows, maybe next time I pull that Ace of Cups, it’ll be upright, a sign of new beginnings and emotional fulfillment. That’s the hope, anyway.
